What Now?

I sit here typing from my couch at 1:30am while watching a service from my favorite church in Nashville (Church of the City, I love you dearly). During the worship at the beginning I couldn’t help but just sit and listen to the music, thinking about this year from beginning to end.

What now? I sit here asking myself that. What now? In a discussion the pastors were having, they asked what do we want to leave in this last year and what do we want to bring into the New Year.

I want to leave my idolatry of career/work in 2020. My work journey did not end how I expected so far, but my mind needs to remember that all work is important and that most people don’t even get to experience some of the things that I did. If God still has a place for me in the work world that I enjoy, then He will open doors and opportunities for me in the future just like He did in the past. I want to leave and let go of the idea that my field of work defines who I am or gives me my value. My hope is not in my job but I can hope for a better future for you and me in which living can be a tad easier than it is right now.

I want to carry all the friendships I had in 2020, but even more so all the one’s I’ve made over the last four years. I love the people I have met, and even though I may be closer or further from some, I want to keep many of these people in my life. I can still do this no matter where I live, it just takes initiative and effort on my part to make sure I keep caring for my loved ones.

These changes and uncertainty still get to me, even after five months but these words bring peace and guidance as to what I should focus on right now in the present moment, “and to make it your ambition to lead a quiet life: You should mind your own business and work with your hands.”