Just Enough

This drive home illustrated PERFECTLY what the last few months has felt like for many of us. Living in the dark with a dense fog, not being able to see where it ends, not being able to see what may come beside you. Driving home this night brought to life the chilling reality my insides have dealt with ever since losing my job, leaving Nashville, and closing a two year season that I was nothing but beautiful. For once I could externally see what I’ve been experiencing internally- plans ripped up, starting over, with absolutely no idea what will happen next. But as I kept driving, of course at some point there was light. It may not have been much light, but enough to know that I wasn’t alone, that something was ahead, just enough to reassure me, “ok, there’s some light.” A Flashing red stoplight, a car, or some street lights, just something to break through the darkness.

I think that’s how life works. Sometimes we’re given just enough. Just enough light. Just enough time. Just enough sleep. Just enough food. Many times, all we need is just enough. We’re thankful when the blessings shower over us and we mourn when we see a decrease in our lives, but how often do we have gratitude for what is just enough? I stand by what I say, but I wouldn’t change a thing in this season: through all I’ve had to leave behind and move on from, I still wouldn’t trade it. The stoplight for me lately are some of the faces I get to welcome back in my life. The oncoming car holds faces I get to see more of than before. The street light, the faces that have always been above and there for me even when I don’t realize it. I think all we really need is just enough. In due time, the fog will rise, the darkness will leave, and we will have more light than we ever needed. But for now, all we need is just enough.

“I am reminded where you have brought me, and where you have placed me for today. I won’t forget that your hand will hold me, you love sustains me through the wait. I will wait on you Lord.” - David Leonard